Mama San.

My mom is sick. She's been in the hospital since the first, and I'm very worried. She told me today if everything goes well she should be released on Tuesday morning. I'm keeping my figures crossed and I'm praying she is. I miss her, and I want her to feel better more than anything. So here's to hoping everything goes the way it should.

Turkey Day.

haha.
Happy Thanksgiving ;)

In Memory of Capone.

Capone died today of a heart attack. The vet says his heart was too small.

waiting.

I'm trying to kill some time while I wait for 8p.m showing of Much Ado About Nothing here at my school. I feel like that's what I've been doing the most of lately, waiting. Waiting for this, waiting for that, waiting for May to roll around and my four years at this University as an Undergrad to come to an end. To be honest the more I think about it the more depressed I get. I've come to really love it here, and the though of leaving it hurts in a way I never thought would happen. I came into this telling myself I wasn't going to be a fifth year Senior, that I would work hard, and graduate on time, and now I'm regretting staying on that track because if I hadn't I'd have one more year. I take the LSAT in December, another thing I'm waiting for, and hopefully I do well on it, and the law school that is on my current University's campus will accept me and I'll have three more years here. But then I'll just be waiting again, waiting for those three years to be up, and then I'll really have to leave. I honestly don't know if it's because college has been such an amazing experience for me, or because I consider this University as much of a home as my real one. Either way, when May gets here, I'm going to be a mess.

Easily Amused.

Something that I doubt will ever get old to me is hearing my history Professor say "half baked" in his French accent.

P.S It's sort of interesting I have a Professor who is French considering I want to learn the language. I think I may be picking up words just from hearing him in class already, but that's probably wishful thinking. I seemed to be surrounded by France this semester, as it is regularly mentioned in 3 out of my 5 classes.

remember.

Remember September 11, 2001 and all those innocent people and heroes that lost their lives.

Parlez-vous français?

I am seriously considering learning French. I've always wanted to learn a foreign language, it's just a continuous goal I've had for myself. After my mother sort of shut down the idea of me learning Arabic, (it's not a racist thing, it's just that like any concerned mother she doesn't want my job shipping me into a war zone) I figured I would learn Spanish because I have a bit of a background in it having taken 3 years of it in high school. However, I've come to realize I didn't learn the Spanish I know, I memorized it which isn't a good thing. So, starting from scratch in a different language, especially a Latin based one, seems to be my best bet, at least in my opinion. I'm hoping to get the Rosetta Stone software around Christmas or maybe sooner. Wish me luck!

p.s for those of you who don't know, I want to work for the government in some capacity, hence the war zone comment.

Capone, Orginal Gangster

He's a Pit Bull, and the newest addition to the family.

Officially a Senior

It's true, it's been posted on my University's website. Only 10 classes to go :)

a resolute and unyielding need.

I want a corgi so very much.
image from dailypuppy.com

fences & fire hydrants.

photos by me :)

insomnia.

I can't sleep, which isn't anything new or unusual for me since I've been plagued with insomnia since birth. To entertain myself I decided to post a random picture of...

Mr. Bean.
And now I'm going to give this sleep thing another try, goodnight all.

ghost hunters episode.

Painting by Walter Haskell Hinton 1950
The second half of tonight's Ghost Hunters was in Philadelphia, PA in the Betsy Ross house, and I just so happen to be related to Betsy Ross on my mom's side. Yes, it's true, I'm related to the woman that sewed the first American flag, and I might be bragging just a little. So I was twice as excited as I originally was for the new episode when I realized where it was taking place. All in all I thought it was an alright episode. They picked up some EVP's (Electronic Voice Phenomenon) in both the first and second half and that's all, but at least it was something. I'm just happy it's back.

let's go lights out.

Tonight at 9 on SCI-FI there will be a brand new episode of Ghost Hunters. I'm addicted to the show, and I've seen every single episode since it started, so it's safe to say I'm pretty excited for the new season.

For more information on TAPS and Ghost Hunters check out www.scifi.com/ghosthunters and the-atlantic-paranormal-society.com.

notebook.

photos by me :)

blue skies, smilin' at me.

the sky today.
photo by me :)

yoshi (:

credit for image goes to janette.createblog.com

slowly getting better.

I have no energy, still cough, and I'm sore, but I feel better today than I did yesterday. I went outside for a little while today and sat on a bench to get some fresh air, just that little bit of activity wore me out. I'm back in my room aka quarantine purgatory, but a least I have my window open. I'm probably going to take a trip back to school tomorrow to get some things I forgot, one of them being the usb to my camera so I can start posting pictures of my epic spring break, haha. I need to start packing up my things soon because we're moving into a new house, and I think I've actually forgotten to mention that before, so sorry about that. It's a nice little house and I'll post pictures of it as soon as I take some. I've only been in it once. Anyway, I think I'm going to write some more on other things. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be closer to 100%.

p.s

I've decided I'm going to start posting random pictures from my life on here. That was my original intention when I got my digital camera but I've never gotten around to it. Be prepared for them to not make sense.

the crazy octo-mom.

I almost didn't post anything about Nadya Suleman, or her obvious attempts to look like Angelina Jolie (which are extremely obvious just look for god sakes), but then I decided I just couldn't ignore it any longer. Why can't I ignore it any longer? Well, because I've heard that 911 call she made after she lost one of her kids about 10 times this week. That's the first sign you've got to many to handle, when you don't even notice one's gone for and hour. The week after she gave birth there were many discussions about her in a couple of my classes. Mostly arguments either saying she should NOT have been allowed to reproduce at all, let alone again because she's unemployed, addicted to surgery, and unstable. That and her own mother says she already has 6 children and that is already too many. They (she and her mother) fight all the time, not to mention stress is high because many people are angry she's on welfare and that the American tax dollar is having to fund her brood of children. My reasoning is that she should never have been cleared for in-vitro fertilization to begin with, especially the second time, because she has NO JOB, and she's unstable. She's not like Jon and Kate, who are able to financially care for their children. If she had a job, and a stable home life I'd say she could pop out however many babies she wants, but she doesn't. Here's a video of her and her mother fighting, and a woman telling her to get a job.

new...again.

I've changed my layout yet again. I really like this one because it's simple and fairly easy to navigate. The only thing I don't quite understand are the icons that I put in the coding just seem to show whichever one they want in no particular order. Oh, well. Anyway, I'm still sick, but I seem to be getting better. I've gotten some writing done and I feel pretty good about it. Just thousands of words to go, haha.

new resolution.

I love this song :)

New Resolution
by Heartless Bastards

my new resolution is to be
someone who does not take everything so seriously
I want to laugh and joke and have a smoke
and have a good time
and join an institution that will fuel my mind
whoever said ignorance, oh it was bliss
well, there's something there
that I declare they surely missed
'cause in the days and modern ways
you'll get passed by
try to have some fun
I always want to take it in stride

I was out there
on an open sea
no direction, and no one to lead

and then I looked back in there
how did we get there?
the water was foggy
but I didn't really care
'cause stagnancy makes me drown
and I really want to live

my new resolution is to be
someone who does not care what anyone thinks of me
'cause I don't even like myself half the time
and what's the use in worrying what's on other people's minds?

I was out there
on an open sea
no direction, and no one to lead

and then I looked back in there
how did we get there?
the water was foggy
but I didn't really care
'cause stagnancy makes me drown
and I really want to live

I want this.

I want this thing.

sick.

I'm sick and it's horrible. My head feels like a water balloon, and my throat burns all the way into my chest like it's on fire. I really just want it to go away and I hope my roommates don't get it. It's bad enough they have to listen to me whine, I'd hate for them to actually get sick.

we didn't start the fire.

I saw this in my Modern U.S History class and thought it was pretty great.

frustration.

I'm extremely frustrated right now because I have the worst case of writer's block I have ever had. I guess that's what I get for trying to write two completely different stories at one time. Well, that and I think they're good stories but I won't do them justice because my writing ability sucks. This is the reason I've been trying to fish the same book for 5 years, I never think what I do is good enough. To be honest, I'll probably never finish either, which is depressing. The only reason why even I've even let it be known that I'm attempting such a feat is I thought it would light a fire under me to actually just sit down and write instead of deleting everything and starting over all the time. Now I'm rambling in great big long sentences because I'm getting more and more frustrated the more I think about it. Ugh. I hope I finish what I've started, but I really need to stop second guessing myself. In the meantime, don't hold your breathe waiting for my books to come out, it might be awhile, if ever.

jack the ripper.

I watched some of the documentary on serial killers I bought earlier this week. The first one covered was Jack the Ripper. Although, of course, he is not the first serial killer, he is the first one to gain fame and he also sparked giving the killers names. i.e. BTK, The Boston Strangler, etc.

the road not taken.

The Road Not Taken
by: Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

curtis stone.

truth be told, I just like to look at him sometimes :)

new.

new blog layout and new name :) I'll be posting something more interesting soon.

I want this.

fact.

I feel like I'm just getting more and more restless.

inventing villains.

Yesterday as I was writing some more on my book, or what I hope to eventually be my book if I ever actually finish it, I got a little sidetracked and started to write on something else. Something in what I was writing sparked another idea and before I knew it had caught in the figurative wind and had started to spread. The idea is a dark one, and is requiring me to come up with a sinister villain. I've found that's easier said than done. There have been so many great villains already thought up that it's difficult to make a new one without feeling like you're poaching someone else's creativity. I've got a few good ideas and hopefully one of them ends up being right for the story. I've decided it can't just be a run of the mill serial killer, I have something else in mind. We'll just have to wait and see what happens. Anyway, it's almost 6 A.M and I really need to try to sleep. Good Night/Morning.