Side Effects

I had to delete some of my postings to make this new (very amazing) template work. I am currently in the process of figuring out how to repost them so they should be back soon.

My John McCain post was one that had to be deleted so here's a link to his website. Join the campaign and help make history. I am.

So Very Tired

As the title of this post would suggest, I'm tired. It's nearing the end of the semester and the end of my sophomore year here in college, finals are looming, and my stress level is through the roof, but what else is new? I'm always terrified that what I'm doing is never good enough, and I don't know why I put this kind of pressure on myself. I have a really good GPA, I work hard, but there's always that fear in the back of my mind that something can and will go wrong.

On top of that I have a laundry list of things I want to do in the next year or so, and it seems like every time I try to do anything worth while, or anything that would warrant a change, it all falls apart. Like I've said before, I hope I'm due for something good to happen. I just want to study abroad, I don't think that's too much to ask. I tried to transfer colleges but, well, that was a catastrophe that obviously resulted in nothing that I wanted. I need to branch out, it feels like fate hates me. People keep telling me that if it were meant to happen it would, but that doesn't make me feel any better, because I want it to happen more than anything. One of my biggest fears is being stuck in the same place my entire life. I do not want that to happen, there's too much, to much to learn, see, and do, to be stationary.