Sleepless.

It's 5:37 in the morning and I'm still awake. This insomnia is starting to take it's toll on me. I would post something of more substance, but I just don't have the energy. I wish I could sleep.

Carousel.

Another new layout. I happened across it and thought it was amazing so here it is. I hope you like it. Also I have a new tag board. You don't have to type in your name you can just put guest, also you don't have to put in your website either. Feedback is appreciated. It lets me know if anyone is reading.

I Want To Believe.

I can't wait for the release of this movie. I've been waiting 6 years for them to do something. The closer it gets to the 25th the more excited I get.

Why Do You Let Me Stay Here?

why do you let me stay here? by She & Him

Different Decisions .

The decisions we make shape who we are. They "decide" which path we go down, what people we stick with, what place we live, and so on. But, if one of those past decisions were altered, if you had chosen a different one instead, where would your life be now? I found that I was asking myself that on my walk yesterday. That's probably the reason why I was thinking about paths in the first place. But, anyway, I started to wonder, what if I had decided this, what if I had decided that instead? Would all roads lead me to where I am anyway? Are we slaves to fate? Or do we have more power than we are willing to admit. I like to believe that my own choices, not fate's, lead me to where I am, but then again I like to believe in the power of fate, and that there's something big for me in the works that I don't know about. The way I think about fate is like thinking someone you've never met is going to knock on your front door and present you the keys to a brand new car, but I entertain the notion of it anyway. So of course my mind started to wander a little off track. I like to think that there's something far bigger than us all, because it lightens the seriousness people try to shove out on a daily basis. If we are so small in the grand scheme of things, you really should lighten up. Not that I'm trying to take away from the power that is life, instead I'm saying that if you focus on the serious aspect, you're worrying, and if you're worrying, you're not living, and you should be. I think you'll find that more living happens when it's not trying to be done.

I know I'm where I'm at for a reason, and I know that I helped shape it somewhat. But I also acknowledge fate's role in it. My decision might not have been ones on that grand of scale, but that will change in the future. I plan to work hard, and do the best I can to help as many people as I can. I know that life will keep up with me, and I'm not going to try to force "living", because it's just something that happens in the midst of everything else.

villains.

I just thought this would be an interesting thing to post.click here for the top 25 villains.

Newness.

New template for the page. I like it very much, I'm pretty partial to warm colors. Although I've never been to London, it's one of the first places I want to visit as soon as I get the means to travel. It's the only place I would even halfway consider living outside of the US. But I'm an American girl, I know where home is.

On another note, I'm up to my elbows in books. That's not a bad thing, but I believe my friend Becca is planning my demise, because she has been waiting for 2 books I'm reading for a while. I keep getting sidetracked with others.

The books in my pile (haha):

Perfume: The Story of a Murderer by Patrick Suskind
The Other Boleyn Girl by Phillipa Gregory
The Night of the Wolf by Alice Borchardt
The Wolf King (these are the 2 Becca needs) by Alice Borchardt
Picture Perfect by Jodi Picoult
The Crimson Petal and the White by Michel Faber

as a little side note, Alice Borchardt is Anne Rice's sister, if you didn't know.