A Sound Of Thunder

So it's 6:30 (that's a.m by the way) and I have yet to go to sleep. I've been lying in bed wondering, of all the things to wonder about, what would life be like in "my" house had I never been born? On a smaller level, I know that would make Joey the oldest and Chase would still be the youngest, but not 3rd in the order. I know that would mean that Joey had the biggest room in the house and more responsibility. I also know that they would be really bored with no big sister to pick on. Going deeper, I wonder if my family would live in the same house, or even the same town had I never been born. The first year of my life I lived in two totally different places. It was the arrival of my brother and the fact that we were growing up that caused my parents to move out of the city into the country. I wonder if they would feel like something was missing in their lives or if they would feel like everything is whole, that nothing is gone. On an even bigger level I guess that would also mean that the world would be different as well. No, I'm not arrogant nor do I think I'm this epic human being (yet, haha), but I believe the non-arrival of someone would make a difference, be it big or small, there would be one. Like in A Sound of Thunder when the butterfly dies and it alters the course of history and the world forever. Something as small as a butterfly changed everything. I guess my insomnia riddled mind is over-worked but it made sense in my head, whether it does or not on this screen is another matter. But I guess it's something to think on; what would your own small world and the world at large be like with out your presence in it? Do you think it would be better, worse or indifferent? I personally don't know what it would be like, and I never want to find out.