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I'm home for the summer so there should be more posts than usual coming soon, at least I hope.

Thoughts at 2 AM

So finals are over, and I survived, but just barely. So far I have 2 A's and 1 B. We'll have to wait and see what happens with the remaining 2. I'm sitting here in my gutted dorm room extremely tired and not looking forward to packing all of this stuff in the truck tomorrow and then having to unpack it when I get home. Blah, blah, sorry for all the complaining, I'm just tired and it seems like this week will never end. I'm going to miss be here at school, as much as I'm going to enjoy no homework or early morning classes, I'm still sad I'm going to be gone for 3 months. Those 3 months feel like they last forever. But I'm going to be happy to spend time with my family, even though I go home often, we don't spend much time together because everyone is so busy all the time. We're going to make up for lost time I guess. I'm really looking forward to next semester, I'm friends with all my roommates and my schedule is set up to where I don't have classes on Fridays. Go me.

On a different note, I watched the movie Wristcutters in intervals whilst cleaning today, and I really enjoyed it, the film is unique and is definitley worth watching, so there's the recommendation for the week I guess. Haha.

I'm Pretty Sure I'm In Hell

So it's finals week and I'm only one final in and I want to crawl in a hole and never see sunlight again. I'm worried, just really, really worried. I usually am, and I usually have no reason to be but that doesn't stop me from doing it. I'm studying and praying at the same time like I always do. I need to calm down but I can't. I do this every year and I've yet to learn that it doesn't help. I just wish that finals week was over, that I got all good grades and that I was sitting at home doing nothing, because that's all there is left to do. Instead, I'm sitting here in my dorm room up to my eyeballs in Abnormal Psych thinking about my biology final on Wednesday and worrying about my math final I took at 1 today. Like the title suggests, I'm pretty sure I'm in hell.

Side Effects

I had to delete some of my postings to make this new (very amazing) template work. I am currently in the process of figuring out how to repost them so they should be back soon.

My John McCain post was one that had to be deleted so here's a link to his website. Join the campaign and help make history. I am.

So Very Tired

As the title of this post would suggest, I'm tired. It's nearing the end of the semester and the end of my sophomore year here in college, finals are looming, and my stress level is through the roof, but what else is new? I'm always terrified that what I'm doing is never good enough, and I don't know why I put this kind of pressure on myself. I have a really good GPA, I work hard, but there's always that fear in the back of my mind that something can and will go wrong.

On top of that I have a laundry list of things I want to do in the next year or so, and it seems like every time I try to do anything worth while, or anything that would warrant a change, it all falls apart. Like I've said before, I hope I'm due for something good to happen. I just want to study abroad, I don't think that's too much to ask. I tried to transfer colleges but, well, that was a catastrophe that obviously resulted in nothing that I wanted. I need to branch out, it feels like fate hates me. People keep telling me that if it were meant to happen it would, but that doesn't make me feel any better, because I want it to happen more than anything. One of my biggest fears is being stuck in the same place my entire life. I do not want that to happen, there's too much, to much to learn, see, and do, to be stationary.

3:30 AM

So, it's been a few weeks since my last post, since then some things worth going on about have happened. John McCain announced he is the official GOP candidate for the Presidential election, the obviousness of my previous statement is what caused me not to write an epic blog about it. Everyone already new, because he was so far ahead in the polls. Not that I'm not excited, believe you me I'm freakishly ecstatic, I just decided to spare you the redundancy of my telling you what you were plenty aware of. Well, that and the fact my blogger account decided to have a little meltdown on me and not let me open it right when it happened. That's probably the real reason, anyway. One of Hilary Clinton's campaign worker's stepped down, well, she pretty much had to after she made some questionable comments about Barack Obama's race and ability. Willie/Billy Cunningham of 700 WLW is pretty much in the same boat. He's let it die down, which is huge for him because he harps relentlessly. He was a speaker at John McCain's campaign in my birthplace, good ole' Cincinnati, Ohio. He said some things that let inclined John McCain to apologize for him and as a result, well, hell hath no fury like a wounded Willie. Again something I would have been very angry about at the time, but alas the blogger malfunction. Now it too is old news.

In more personal news, I got a pink blackberry pearl, and am currently obsessed with it. My friend Amber and I are going to try to cross the pond next spring to spend a semester abroad in the UK. Wish us luck. All of my other attempts at relocating, even for a little while, have failed so hopefully I'm due. I've been on spring break since last Friday and it's gone by so fast I honestly can't figure out where I put the time. I've done nothing too terribly exciting. No trips across the border for booze and table dancing, no Girls Gone Wild stints. Granted I don't really dance, drink, and I'm one of the most modest and moral people you'll ever come across, but I felt the need to use those colorful examples. I'm going to try to sleep now, which means I'll lie down for 10 minutes and then end up on myspace.

Goodnight for now.

I Am Not Amused

The New York Times stated online yesterday some unfounded accusations about Senator John McCain. As a result I will no longer be reading their paper and they can stick their story where the sun doesn't shine. Get Proof New York Times, then we'll talk. Click this to read what I'm so angry about.

In Recent News

Mitt Romney is endorsing John McCain, and Barack Obama is currently winning a ton of states and making Hilary Clinton nervous.

Super Tuesday

...enough said. Go John McCain go!!!